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Heaven - Bryan Adams |
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*Takes a deep breath, sitting down by the computer, looking back at the bed once before beginning to type*
Wow. That's pretty much the only word that can describe what i'm feeling right now. Just this morning I was depressed and lonley, and feeling like total and utter crap. And now..god that couldn't be farther from what i'm feeling now. I was just sitting in my hotel room, totoally bored and the phone rings, so I pick it up and it was Matt. It felt so good to hear his voice again. I told him how much I missed him and he said he missed me too..so he wanted to come and visit. My mood totally changed when he said that. I knew basically what I needed to make me feel better was for him to come and visit me on tour. Benji has Tony with him and I have been feeling kinda left out..so I needed Matt to come here. Plus I needed to make sure of something I was feeling. I told him I would cook him dinner so as soon as we hung up he went to buy his plane tickets and I went to the store, bought some food and cooked. It took me a while because i've never really cooked before..but it looked alright once I was done. So after that I changed clothes and got ready for him to come..and within minutes..there was a knock on my door. God if I say I opened the door and felt like I was looking at an angel, that was an understatement. He looked even more handsome than I remembered. I didn't even know what to do but I didn't have to think hard because pretty much right away he pulled me into a hug. God, he smelled so good. He nuzzled his lips against my neck and it sent shivers all throughout my body. We went into my hotel room and I don't know why but all I could think about was how badly I needed to kiss him. My eyes traced his face over and over, never wanting to leave this beautiful sight. I ran my index finger down his face and lips, and leaned in and pressed my lips against his. The shivers came back, along with my heart speeding up yet skipping beats. My eyes just seemed to flutter shut as we got closer to each other, standing mearly inches apart I somehow felt my entire being being lifted out of my body and entering his. We eventually pulled apart because the food was getting cold. He said he liked my cooking, which made me feel good, because I did it just for him. About half way through dinner I got anxious and asked him where we stood in our relationship. He asked me where I wanted us to stand and I got up all the courage inside of me and asked him to be my boyfriend. He accepted. *sighs happily* God it feels so amazing to have him be mine..finally. Mine. Wow I can't say that enough.
He was pretty tired from his flight so I let him curl up in my bed and go to sleep early. *turns head and looks at him* He looks so peaceful...like an angel. My angel. *smiles*
*Puts the music on very softly not to wake him and sings very softly along with it*
Oh thinking about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feeling down
Yea, nothing could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way
I've been waiting for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are coming true
Through the good times and the bad
Yea, I'll be standing there by you...
*Sighs, clicking "Post", closing laptop, gently crawling into bed next to him, stroking his hair softly* Matt..*says even below a whisper* I guess i'm only able to say this because you're asleep..I know if you were looking at me i'd loose all my thoughts..but..*sighs, leaning in and kissing his eyelids* I think i'm in love with you....
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